THIS IS WHAT I LIVE FOR

One thing have I asked of the Lord,

    that will I seek after:

that I may dwell in the house of the Lord

    all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord

    and to inquire^[a] in his temple

Psalms 27:4

Thats all I want is to gaze upon the beauty of The Lord . I want to be where he is all the time. I want to see Him smile. I want to let him know that I love Him! I think about all the times I felt incomplete, unloved , and alone. He took all that away. I just imagine what it would be like to take a glimpse of who he is. I can't wait. I have also post the verse in Spanish below. I love the translation!!!

Una cosa he demandado a Jehová, ésta buscaré;

Que esté yo en la casa de Jehová todos los días de mi vida,

Para contemplar la hermosura de Jehová, y para inquirir en su templo.

 Salmo 27:4

SOME TIME OF PEACE

Today my church went to the lake. I had some time to be alone. I sat there listening to the waves and different insects around. I couldn't sit there without thanking God. I needed this. In the middle of everything I felt grounded. I wasn't worried about anything. I know he gave  me that opportunity.I have different things coming up .....and he gives me this moment! I reminds me not to worry so much about worldly things! Everything is temporary. I can't stay stuck in this world. I need to focus more on him and less on my home, Job or family. He is going to take care of it all. This is my verse for today!

 Philippians 4:6-7

GRACE

 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. Eph. 2 : 8-10 


Grace has been on my mind this week. What is grace? approval, favor, mercy & pardon.I am far from perfect and everyone knows that. I am not squeaky clean. I have made mistakes. I have hurt others. If you're reading this and know that I have hurt or offended you I'm sorry.I am  not using this as  stage to put my apologizes out there. Just know I have made a lot people hurt. People will forever look at me and say yeah sure you're christian. I will forever be judged by my past. To most of the people who still allow me to be a part of their life I still say I am sorry. What makes me saved? its Grace. He has favor over my life. He loved me so much he died to forgive me. He gave me mercy when everyone judged me.Even though I was guilty and everyone knew it!!!He said I clear your debit. I know its because of his grace that I am saved. Its not because of my smiles or good attitude. Its  not by how much much I help the homeless. Its not by anything that I have done. I cant say I own grace. It was given to me as a gift. It was given to me as a second chance. Its because I don't own it I can say you can get it to. Regardless of your past. Regardless of what people know as. I want you to know that it can change. Know today that there is a God who loves you so much. He gave his son to die for not just me but for you. That even with all my mess he cleaned me up and made me new. He can do that for you. Just give him a chance.

PERSONAL POST: THOUGHTS ON MY LIFE WITHOUT GOD

I woke up this morning thinking what would my life be like WITHOUT God? What if I ran away from what he had for my life?what if chased every distraction that came into my life?? I wouldn't be here. My family wouldn't be here either. I would be in a hole of darkness. I would be empty . I wouldn't have peace. I would have hate and grudges. I would be angry at God. I would be far my purpose. Every person I have met I wouldn't know!! I would be lost looking for "my home". I thought wow THAT IS ME WITHOUT GOD. I would be nothing, but he found me. I say he found me because I wasn't looking for him. He never left me , he picked me up. He called me his daughter. He gave me purpose. He gave me life.I can only forever dedicate my life to serve him.I will keep this post as a reminder. Every time I get lost I  will come to this.

WHEN I DOUBT HE IS THERE!

The lord is good-A refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him- Nahum 1:7 (NIV)

When I read this I was very young. One of the bible verses I memorized and it stuck. When times got hard I would tell myself he is your refuge. I think about refuge as a place of peace and safety. When I was afraid I felt alone , and I would remember this verse. It gave me peace. I would tell myself he cares. He knows how much I trust him. He knows that my everything is placed in him. I know he will come through. My faith was so low. I didnt trust him. I would have doubt. Especially when things didnt happen. I got this idea he wasnt real he was never there. Then again this verse would come to me. It starts by saying hes GOOD. I mean how could I say he is good when I am struggling? I didnt get it. Then it keeps going. It says he is a refuge in times of troubles. That shook me. I was looking for peace and rest. The word tells me I find refuge in him!! ONLY IN HIM!! not in my friends, family or anyone. So I knew hey I am looking for peace he gives it to me. He gives me what I have been searching for. Then it finishes by saying He cares for those who TRUST in him. That hit me. I didnt trust him. I didnt feel he cared. That was my thoughts. In that moment all the things I thought in my mind of who he was broke. I realize why he is GOOD. He gave me peace even when I doubted him. When I was at my lowest he said I am your refuge. I felt alone he said I care about you TRUST ME!! How could now say hes isnt good?? Still today when I feel everything going wrong I remember where to find peace.