PERSONAL POST: THOUGHTS ON MY LIFE WITHOUT GOD

I woke up this morning thinking what would my life be like WITHOUT God? What if I ran away from what he had for my life?what if chased every distraction that came into my life?? I wouldn't be here. My family wouldn't be here either. I would be in a hole of darkness. I would be empty . I wouldn't have peace. I would have hate and grudges. I would be angry at God. I would be far my purpose. Every person I have met I wouldn't know!! I would be lost looking for "my home". I thought wow THAT IS ME WITHOUT GOD. I would be nothing, but he found me. I say he found me because I wasn't looking for him. He never left me , he picked me up. He called me his daughter. He gave me purpose. He gave me life.I can only forever dedicate my life to serve him.I will keep this post as a reminder. Every time I get lost I  will come to this.

WHEN I DOUBT HE IS THERE!

The lord is good-A refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him- Nahum 1:7 (NIV)

When I read this I was very young. One of the bible verses I memorized and it stuck. When times got hard I would tell myself he is your refuge. I think about refuge as a place of peace and safety. When I was afraid I felt alone , and I would remember this verse. It gave me peace. I would tell myself he cares. He knows how much I trust him. He knows that my everything is placed in him. I know he will come through. My faith was so low. I didnt trust him. I would have doubt. Especially when things didnt happen. I got this idea he wasnt real he was never there. Then again this verse would come to me. It starts by saying hes GOOD. I mean how could I say he is good when I am struggling? I didnt get it. Then it keeps going. It says he is a refuge in times of troubles. That shook me. I was looking for peace and rest. The word tells me I find refuge in him!! ONLY IN HIM!! not in my friends, family or anyone. So I knew hey I am looking for peace he gives it to me. He gives me what I have been searching for. Then it finishes by saying He cares for those who TRUST in him. That hit me. I didnt trust him. I didnt feel he cared. That was my thoughts. In that moment all the things I thought in my mind of who he was broke. I realize why he is GOOD. He gave me peace even when I doubted him. When I was at my lowest he said I am your refuge. I felt alone he said I care about you TRUST ME!! How could now say hes isnt good?? Still today when I feel everything going wrong I remember where to find peace.